Its funny how weird & out of place “normal” can feel. It’s not ways a bad thing – quite often it’s great tk really appreciate something that’s usually pretty common.
My son’s dad isnt exactly stable rigjt now, so he’s seen Xaviar 2 or 3 times tops in the past couple years. He’s seen his Nanny and one of his cousins that she’s raising (my former almost MIL, henceforth refetred to as “Mj” lol) Xaviar’s cousin “Pt” has always been so good with him (he’s about 7 or 8 years older)
Anyway, I had messaged Mj to let her know about Xaviar’s diagnosis, she msg’d back saying she had a couple other grandkids visiting amd invited us out to this game center last weekend (arcade, mini golf, few other activities) I got a pic with X eating pizza with his 3 cousins, and my heart just melted at how confortable he looked. Like he SHOULD. A little boy with his cousins ❤
Like I said, its simple, normal, and usually common but with our circumstances its not an opportunity we have much. So when it happens its beautiful 💕 Plus too, the other boys were great with him not talking, or even if they didnt understand they were so casual about it and didnt make him feel awkward at all. (One was 6, he did his own thing lol but the other boy was about 9, and like Pt he was so good with Xaviar – tons of hugs even though they just met!)
It makes me feel better about the future. I worry about kids teasing or bullying, depending on how his speech progresses. But he’s smart & adaptable…as he gets used to being around other kids more, I think he’ll develope his own style or way of communicating with playmates that will work for him. And that is what would make a world of a difference – just having a few or couple good friends, and screw what everyone else thinks lol
Or, it might not be a doomsday scenario like I tend to imagine and Im overthinking things. Again. Not sure if that was a bit of BPD or anxiety shining through the cracks there lol
Long story short, it’s still such a strange and cozy feeling to look at an ordinary, every day scenario and feel like your heart is melting. I hope I never lose that appreciation ❤
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